holidays.

I haven’t wrote in a really long time. Roughly around twenty days; I’m dying over here. Because of that when i was just laying in bed this morning, thinking, I decided to pick up my phone and just write. Update: Christmas break is almost half way over, my days approaching Christmas were horrible due to me being laid up in bed sick, Christmas has passed, and the New Year is coming at us full speed. My last few days have been good, Christmas was just spent with my sister and grandparents; we relaxed and talked a lot. Oddly my sister and myself have been bonding very much lately and I’m glad because I know it makes her happy. A lot of shopping has been going on, the one thing I hate in this world, but what else can I expect during the holiday times. Nothing special is going to take place on New Year’s Eve in my life, just gonna stay at home with my family, thank God no parties. I baby sat the other night and I babysit again on Friday which isn’t too bad; they are really good kids.

Even though it has been crazy busy and its the holiday season I still have been lonely. I don’t mean lonely as in emotionally but more as mentally and physically. Im aware that i am not the only person in this world that had problems and I’m aware that there has to be at least one other person who is going through exactly what I’m going through. Someone, somewhere,  the same age as me is going through the same thing. I know I’m not alone and i want you to know they you’re not alone either. I talked to my therapist today, we hadn’t talked for about a month and i think this talked really helped me. At least that’s what everyone around me has said, the old Desiree came out, I saw the old Desiree; whatever that means. I think it helped me and I think I feel better but, who is the old Desiree? Obviously I know that I have changed, I realize this and im okay with it. Life is all about change, we all change as we get older and experience new situations it is just apart of life.

I started this new thing yesterday that im going to write about later, I have more topics that I want to write about, im just not sure if I should wait till the new year. I know my first post of the new year is going to be really good, I want to write something that I actually like and feel strongly about. I apologize for this crappie post, it isnt very well thought out and im disappointed in myself; trust me I contemplated about not posting this at all, there is no purpose but oh well.

day one.

Not only is today my first full day of Fall break but it is also my first day having a blog!I must say that I do enjoy this very much.

Last night was very eventful. After driving to my bestfriends house( if I mention any names, I have changed them) we walked around the neighborhood with two guys from school; getting icecream, and acting like four little kids. It was fun sneaking around behind my grandparents and her moms back. That doesn’t sound like a lot of sneaking around but for two girls who never do anything wrong that is a lot! Anyways after getting back to her house a little after ten we ate more icecream, my biggest weakness truly! Then talked on the phone with Jordan( one of the guys we walked with) and just bumbed around. A little after twelve we both passed out and I didn’t walk home till after twelve this morning. When getting home I didn’t do much of anything except read a little and watch all my cheesy lifetime movies. Just showering not even twenty minutes ago I decided to blog more. I wanted Alex( my bestfriend) to come over to my house or i go over to hers but I don’t know what happened. Jordan and his friend wanted to hang out again tonight but Alex had said no. She wanted to go to the mall earlier after she got done babysitting but I just felt like being lazy, and declined her offer. Not much else to do now other then watch tv, blog, or read. I do have homework that has to be done over my break but that can wait till one in the morning next Sunday. I guess I will find something else to write about now; possible tell more facts about myself. I think I will go bake some brownies though before, that would make the entire house happy. Oh! Before I finish I must tell you I got a babysitting gig today! A lady down the street from where I live came to me over the summer and took my number but never called. Her husband came over today and asked if I could babysit this Monday. I of course said yes! They have three kids; one boy(5), and two girls(7),(11 months). The oldest girl is handicap and I just adore her. They are all lovely children and I’m so excited I get this opportunity. Cash flow coming in..first thing ill buy? The new Ink Joy pens, and then save the rest for the fair next Saturday..maybe a tub of icecream too!