holidays.

I haven’t wrote in a really long time. Roughly around twenty days; I’m dying over here. Because of that when i was just laying in bed this morning, thinking, I decided to pick up my phone and just write. Update: Christmas break is almost half way over, my days approaching Christmas were horrible due to me being laid up in bed sick, Christmas has passed, and the New Year is coming at us full speed. My last few days have been good, Christmas was just spent with my sister and grandparents; we relaxed and talked a lot. Oddly my sister and myself have been bonding very much lately and I’m glad because I know it makes her happy. A lot of shopping has been going on, the one thing I hate in this world, but what else can I expect during the holiday times. Nothing special is going to take place on New Year’s Eve in my life, just gonna stay at home with my family, thank God no parties. I baby sat the other night and I babysit again on Friday which isn’t too bad; they are really good kids.

Even though it has been crazy busy and its the holiday season I still have been lonely. I don’t mean lonely as in emotionally but more as mentally and physically. Im aware that i am not the only person in this world that had problems and I’m aware that there has to be at least one other person who is going through exactly what I’m going through. Someone, somewhere,  the same age as me is going through the same thing. I know I’m not alone and i want you to know they you’re not alone either. I talked to my therapist today, we hadn’t talked for about a month and i think this talked really helped me. At least that’s what everyone around me has said, the old Desiree came out, I saw the old Desiree; whatever that means. I think it helped me and I think I feel better but, who is the old Desiree? Obviously I know that I have changed, I realize this and im okay with it. Life is all about change, we all change as we get older and experience new situations it is just apart of life.

I started this new thing yesterday that im going to write about later, I have more topics that I want to write about, im just not sure if I should wait till the new year. I know my first post of the new year is going to be really good, I want to write something that I actually like and feel strongly about. I apologize for this crappie post, it isnt very well thought out and im disappointed in myself; trust me I contemplated about not posting this at all, there is no purpose but oh well.

daily prompt: bloggers, unplugged

I do agree that sometimes everyone including myself, needs to put all of our phones, tablets, laptops, etc. away. It’s not healthy for a human to be in front of a screen all day. This sadly happens though and I once in a blue moon actually do it. I always have my phone on me wherever I go, never fails. My laptop is usually always open on my bed. Whether the reason may be because of school or social life, it is usually both.

I lose a lot of sleep and family time because I’m always talking to people. I also almost always end up doing my homework at three o’clock in the morning because of procrastination and not being able to put my phone down.
I know this is unhealthy for me, it’s my addiction; a serious problem. Having to keep up with all of this is very overwhelming and I often think about just smashing my phone but I know I could never bring myself to do it.

daily prompt: mix tape masterpiece

I listen to a wide range of music. I think highly of diversity, and when choosing songs to listen to I actually listen to the words and the meaning of the songs(for the most part), sometimes I listen to a song just because the beat is up lifting. If I were to make a new friend today, and create a mix tape/ playlist for them to tell them about myself, the songs that would be on it are:

Give a little Love; Noah and the Whale
Chicago; Sufjan Stevens
Sail; Awolnation
OOoO; Oberhofer
Wait for Me; Theory of a DeadMan
Skinny Love; Bon Iver
Let her Go; Passenger
Counting Stars; One Republic
Wake me Up; Avicii
The Swan Lake, Ballet, Op. 20; Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky
Do I Wanna Know; Arctic Monkeys
Ain’t no Reason; Brett Dennen
One Day; Matisyahu
Pearls Of Joy; Kevin Kern

I have related to every single one of the songs listed above in some way or another. Whether it was in a good way or bad, it can describe or tell you about me somehow.

daily prompt: eye of the beholder

To hear a beautiful piece of music is a marvelous thing. When doing homework and a beautiful classic, soft, song comes on I feel so relaxed. So peaceful as though I can accomplish anything. Cruising along the highway or early in the morning, even late at night is when listening to those louder, more upbeat songs is perfect. You sing a long with the song thinking that you are a professional, smiling and laughing because you are nowhere close.But then for the rest of the night you have that happy feeling in the pit of your stomach and that one verse stuck in your head. Nothing is better then that feeling, and that one verse, nothing.