I haven’t wrote in a really long time. Roughly around twenty days; I’m dying over here. Because of that when i was just laying in bed this morning, thinking, I decided to pick up my phone and just write. Update: Christmas break is almost half way over, my days approaching Christmas were horrible due to me being laid up in bed sick, Christmas has passed, and the New Year is coming at us full speed. My last few days have been good, Christmas was just spent with my sister and grandparents; we relaxed and talked a lot. Oddly my sister and myself have been bonding very much lately and I’m glad because I know it makes her happy. A lot of shopping has been going on, the one thing I hate in this world, but what else can I expect during the holiday times. Nothing special is going to take place on New Year’s Eve in my life, just gonna stay at home with my family, thank God no parties. I baby sat the other night and I babysit again on Friday which isn’t too bad; they are really good kids.
Even though it has been crazy busy and its the holiday season I still have been lonely. I don’t mean lonely as in emotionally but more as mentally and physically. Im aware that i am not the only person in this world that had problems and I’m aware that there has to be at least one other person who is going through exactly what I’m going through. Someone, somewhere, the same age as me is going through the same thing. I know I’m not alone and i want you to know they you’re not alone either. I talked to my therapist today, we hadn’t talked for about a month and i think this talked really helped me. At least that’s what everyone around me has said, the old Desiree came out, I saw the old Desiree; whatever that means. I think it helped me and I think I feel better but, who is the old Desiree? Obviously I know that I have changed, I realize this and im okay with it. Life is all about change, we all change as we get older and experience new situations it is just apart of life.
I started this new thing yesterday that im going to write about later, I have more topics that I want to write about, im just not sure if I should wait till the new year. I know my first post of the new year is going to be really good, I want to write something that I actually like and feel strongly about. I apologize for this crappie post, it isnt very well thought out and im disappointed in myself; trust me I contemplated about not posting this at all, there is no purpose but oh well.
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